Negative Energy

Fitness is everything when you play sport and rugby is defiantly one of the most active sports out there. You play 45 minutes haves where you constantly have to excel your self-forward from a run to sprint. Then using all your strength to make and brake tackles and rucks. To add to if once you’re removed in a half you cant be put back in the game. So there is no coming off to rest for a few minutes then back out to play. This is a game of fitness witch I’m lacking at the moment.

I have never been so unfit in my life and it is so hard to become motivated to become fit when it so hard to revisers bad habits. I start indoor training in a less then a month and I’m not anywhere close to being ready.

Training is really hard on my body and my knee I always in pain after coming home from the gym. I hate having to work twice as hard to get the same results as someone else. I know I sound supper negative but I really am. But unlike other negative people I want to use it for my advantage. I want to force my self to work hard, to believe I need to work harder to be at the same level as the team.

Switching Intimidation for Team work

Intimidation is one of the best things you can have when playing a contacted sport like rugby. My favor team in rugby is the New Zealand All blacks males rugby team they have defiantly perfected intimidation. For anyone that does not know a thing about rugby or the teams the All Black are ten time winners of the World cup.  

But they have really taken the intimidation factor to heart before every international game the whole team go and perform a Haka worrier dance. They stand on the pitch and scream at the top of their lungs and dance.

As a golden hawk I can relate to intimidation maybe not to the point the All Black have perfected but good enough. In the KASSAA league my past and present lady hawks have taken the championship dozens of times. At the moment holding the championship for numerous years in a row. We as hawk have used this to are advantage for years and will contain to do so.

Last year we faced for the first time of never having a single grade 12 lady hawk on are team. We where constantly forced to work on fundaments such a team work, positive attitude and responsibility because we had lost the “size” we used in the past. NDSS always had the biggest, fasted and best player in the KASSA bored to last year. We were a team of no “size”. For the first time NDSS was a small time in Size and numbers. But through out the season we had an up hill battle on how to overcome this. We became a fast team and a family. We built on become a team and working together.

By the end of the season we had developed a chemistry that was real and will carry on through to our up coming season in 2012.

Here is a video of the HAKA   

Dreams

Last night was the first time I have had a nightmare about reinjuring my knee in almost six months. In my nightmare I was back at my first game I played last season. It was at Queens out door turf and our last game of our season opener tournament. The rain was coming down so hard I could barley see up the pitch form the water hitting off my face.

In my dream I was standing on the cold raining pitch unable to see more then a few feet in front of me. I started to run for the try line with out any of my fellow lady hawks around. Out of nowhere I was blind sided with a tackle to my right knee then another from the left at the same time.

I woke up before I hit the ground in my dream; my knee was in so much pain that it felt I had tour my ligaments again. My whole body was stiff with fear as I slowly sat up in my bed to look at my knee. It seem my fears haven’t passed even after three years. 

My Recovery

Today will be my first blog ever so please bear with me. There is not much for me to write about other then my recovery from my open knee surgeries. During the winter of my grade ten year I managed to tear my ACL, PCL and medial meniscus at cheer practice. I gave up a whole year of my life for something that was very unimportant to me.

When I got the news that I could possibly never play sports again I felt my life was hitting rock bottom. My surgeon found only one possible way that I could have a 50% chance of playing rugby again. At fifteen I throw the dice with my future with having open knee surgery. The Surgeon told me if I chose to have the open petal knee graph I would have cryonic pain for life but a half a chance to play rugby. I took my odds.

I went though stomach turning pain, emotional heartbreak and solitude. I went months and months of this until the Day of Judgment on my knee was here. I remember waiting patiently and silently praying to my self for the news I wanted. When the Doctor walked and sat beside me I knew the news wasn’t good.  That was the day I was told I had to have another surgery before I could even attempted to play rugby.

I was sure I was going to lose my first year at being a Sr. ladies hawk or possible never playing rugby again.